Well this is certainly a long time, no see!
I must apologise for my unannounced hiatus from Anchors & Swallows. I would love to give you some good excuses for why I’ve not continued to write on this blog, but for a while, I didn’t know why myself.
When I started Anchors & Swallows, I wanted a place to write and share my limited knowledge on vintage style. I wanted to use it as a place to grow and encourage myself to learn. I wanted to dress vintage more often in my spare time and express myself creatively.
These past three years, I feel I have achieved this and had some great experiences along the way. I’ve made some fabulous online friends, through Instagram and reading other like-minded blogs. I’ve found small independent brands that I fell in love with.
So, what’s changed?
Why am I so reluctant to continue writing?
I’ve asked myself that question an awful lot. For a long time I had no idea why I lost the motivation to continue Anchors & Swallows.
I think it began as a loss of momentum in writing weekly, which I can pin-point to when I first became unwell in late 2018. It became an effort to do my hair and make up and to actually find the time do dress up. The whole process of writing a blog is actually more time consuming than you may think; it would take me at least 1-2 days for me to complete and publish a post in its entirety.
When I was ill, I was exhausted all the time. My job is pretty tiring, mentally, physically and emotionally as it is, so I had very little energy to give on my days off.
Unfortunately, that lack of energy hasn’t changed much, but it has made me shift my focus. I had put a lot of pressure on myself to post weekly on the blog; it became more of a chore than a pleasure to do. Having only just purchased the Anchors & Swallows domain when I became ill, I had so many plans and ideas. I was disappointed that I wasn’t posting regularly enough to grow my blog as I wanted to. After my hospital stay, I wrote about the importance for taking time to rest and essentially, that is what I did.
Since my last hospital stay (Easter 2019), I’ve been much better – although still no diagnosis really! They put it down to IBS, although my symptoms aren’t really related to that condition. I am so unbelievably grateful that I’m pretty much back to normal now, although the thought of it happening again terrifies me. I focus on the here and now and try not to worry too much. As I can’t control that aspect of my health, I try to control the things I can: my diet, drinking enough water, getting plenty of rest.
So, what happens now with Anchors & Swallows?
Right now, I don’t think I will be returning to writing any time soon. Especially with the current uncertain climate, just focussing on my mental health, friends and family is enough.
I don’t want to say never, but just not right now. I don’t really dress vintage any more – there’s not a lot to dress up for these days! But I feel I have built up my skills in hair and make up, plus the wardrobe is still there if I ever wanted to go back to it.
I will be moving this website back to the wordpress domain (www.anchorsandswallows.wordpress.com) at the end of the year, as I wouldn’t want to lose all the work I have done over the last nearly 3 years. I’m not quite sure what I’ll be doing with my Instagram yet, whether I’ll continue to use Anchors & Swallows or make a new personal one – you’ll have to follow me to find out!
I just want to say thank you to all of the readers who have followed me, I have really enjoyed having this space to share my ideas, thoughts and feelings with you.
All I will say, is goodbye for now xx